.Monday, July 16, 2007 ' 7:12 AM Y
& i walk alone
My secondary life is screwed up. why is it so hard for me not to panic and maintain a calm heart and mind? because of this, i believe my O' level chinese is gonna be a bad news.
another is my DSA to NYJC. though i did not played my instrument very well, in fact it was the lousiest i've ever played, i do not regret going there even though i kept having second thought even at the last minute.
upon entering the school campu, some pairs of eyes fall on me with looks of curiousity. unknowingly to them, this has made me feel very uncomfortable. known to be very not street wise, i have not the slightest idea where i was suppose to report. thank God. despite some people who looked at me as though i came from outer space, some treated me with warmth ;)
though i have no idea who are u, i would still want to thank u for taking me to my reporting place ;)
the CO seniors over there were very friendly and kind too. they talked with us, doing their utmost to assure us and our fears of being in a unfamiliar place just left. it made me feel as though i belong to NYJC. may there be a chance to go there in future.
hopefully, my DSA is a success though i think it's highly not possible.
all i need now is motivation and perserverance. many a times, i felt like giving up. but thinking of which, if i give up, it means that i will lose everything, even the possibility of success. it will then be a total failure for me. i will never know if i never try. i shall post this so as to remind myself too.
MY LIFE IS IN A MESS.