.Monday, April 23, 2007 ' 10:53 PM Y
& i walk alone
does true friends exist? will fairytales happen? i highly doubt so. just what is meant by the terms " friends" ? i have trouble understanding it. why? i have no idea. shouldn't friends help each other? shouldn't friends share weal and woe? isn't this some of the things that friends are for?
for the past sixteen years, i'm freaked out by the kind of life i had upon reflection. the primary school life SUCK. hopefully i can bury all the past behind. all those bad memories will only bring tears to my eyes. secondary life was slightly better. i have finally at least a few good friends. a blessing huh? not so much. some of them are friends who laugh when u fell, some are friends who thinks it's funny when u have done something embarrassing. but is their laughter of help to me in those times? NO! they have hurt me instead. all i wanted is friends whom i can trust in, but yet this is all i get. claim that i'm your best friend. i know, u know. now that "best friend" seemed to be just a name, without any true meaning to it. i longed for days in the past but i guess the past will only be memories.
u might not know it, but with your actions and everything, u are killing me. is that what u want eventually? my "death". answer me please. i'm sick and tired of everything. can things change for the better? we are graduating soon, can we even graduate with a wonderful memory? i do not wish to graduate with sadness and tears of unhappiness.