there are so many questions in my mind. why why why. why am i born to be revengeful? why is it that i found it hard to forgive people who has done me wrong? why is it so easy for me to bear grudges yet hard to bury hatchets? i want to be forgiving. i long for that kindof sj but why is it that i've failed? to those who have hurt me in any way, i wanted to love you once again. recalling back those memories of the past, my heart cries. i wanted so much for the things to be the same as last time, those happy times. i want to erase all memories of hatred. sometimes and usually, i tend to say words harshly to hurt them. i regret very much. i want to throw away such a heart, a heart that is forever thinking about revenge. to those who know i'm a christian, u may criticise me but not others who have done nothing wrong. christians have their bad times as well. they do not lead a perfect life. i know that my daddy god is always with me, however, sometimes during my darkest moment, i still tend to forget the fact that i've actually someone who cared. i've been doing my best to change my stupid attititude. i irk at the sight of my own behaviour too! i don't want things to be like that too. i wish i can be reborn into a completely different person without any memories of the present me. lastly, i felt like a useless creature on this earth. why is it that i have no motivation to study? i myself know very well that i want to score well and get into a good jc in future. but why? why am i so lazy? why am i so stupid? i know that no one is perfect, but why can't i at least be born more clever and wiser?
i wish that i've the answer to all these "why's".
THAT LADYY
Si jie xD
Female
Sour and sweet 18(soon)
CCHY,MI
4 April 91
SHE WANTSY
-straight A's for O-lvl (i-m-possible!)
-a guitar + skills to play it
-new bags
-new clothes
-new shoes
-new accessories