.Monday, March 19, 2007 ' 4:44 AM Y
& i walk alone
i've made lots of mistakes, i've angered many people. just what is the best ways to make and KEEP friends, at the same time bonding a close relationships?
to me, having many acqaintance is not enough. i want true FRIENDS and FRIENDSHIPS. it's not an easy task, as we have to "cater" to different people, however, i've already done my best. why is it that i still made lots of mistake? how many people have i hurt? i seriously don't know. can i ask for forgiveness and be forgiven? i have no guts to tell them, as somewhat somehow, hurts that have been inflicted on me will start to surface, the hatred grew once again. it's hard to press down the hatred and replace it with love, i wanted so much to do so. this is specially for SHERYL. u wrote me a letter, but i typed out in blog. hope u will read and respond to me!
ANGELIN. i'm sorry that i've sort of vented my anger though i'm the one at fault. SORRY SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there's a tint of fear deep down. after many things have happened, i'm starting to feel scared, afraid that my love ones will leave me someday, without any warning. the pain of losing my grandpa has already shattered my heart. i'm scared somehow. may all the people around me enjoy good health and longevity!!