.Friday, March 16, 2007 ' 4:21 AM Y
& i walk alone
Is it wrong to wanting to pour out my unhappiness to someone?
Is it that whenever I say something that happens to me, I'm trying to gain sympathy?
If you think I'm gaining sympathy or whatever crap, tell me. I'll not say anything of that kind to you alright. I just want some space. This for bloody hell, is my life. Stop breathing down my neck! I never say I'm in the worst situation and for goodness, compare with me? WTF!! compare compare for all i care. you have seriously destroyed my trust in you, by all those things you've said. i used to kept to myself. reason is because i feared that this kind of things might happen. it took me a long time to get to be open. yet, those things i feared happened once again.
u are ill, am i not? for bloody hell shit, i've been born with this fcking sickness okay. as u said, i might be irresponsible at times, i am! so what? nobody is born perfect! as a normal HUMAN being, i tend to voice out my unhappiness. is that a mistake? u can handle emotions well, that's what u are good at. i wanted that too! can't u see i'm learning?!
christian so what. sometimes i suspect if God is even there! i felt nothing at times even when i prayed!
get it? if all these hell were smooth, i wouldn't have even said all these!
i will not even have cried for hours!
i'm freakingly sick and tired. spare me please