.Thursday, September 21, 2006 ' 6:12 AM Y
& i walk alone
Why am i such a stupid person ? why can't i ever get anything into that stupid brain of mine ?? why can't i remember formulaes, remember equations and why can't i be more witty in a way ?? I simply despise myself for being so useless.. guess that's the reason why i am not so loved by friends and family.. not many people will realise that i'm gone even when i died one day..
today, there's math extra lesson.. the lesson was nice and meaningful to me.. i understand eveything teacher has taught.. but if i were to given the same question that is being twisted and turned, i don't think i will be able to solve anymore.. i must really practise.. but can i meet someone who can be my friend and at the same time, spare me time to teach me studies ? i don't think that kind of person will ever appear for me.. my friends are too busy.. they simply don't have time for me except when in school.. but is that what i want ? i want to have true friends.. someone like sheryl.. sheryl can only chat all that with me and understand me much more than others.. but too bad we are not able to help each other with our school work.. i felt to useless and stupid..
only someone smart will know what the hell i was typing.. as i purposely mess things up.. they are not listed in an orderly way.. hahas =) understand me ? can! if u can beat sheryl in that XD